About Me

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It has been 6 years since I started this blog. It remains "live" because I know that there is someone else out there who can relate to what I felt during that time. Who knows how many people get dumped everyday, the numbers must be high. We live in a " Me-me-me" world where respect and truth have diminished as good character traits in favor of shallow and selfish behavior. I just want to share with you that there is light on the other side. That recovery is a slow process to allow you to come out whole and healthier. We all deserve love. None of us deserve to be treated like something you trade in. Take the time you need to heal, you will be stronger for it.

into the light

Wednesday, February 23, 2011

I am

I am...
a beautiful mature woman.
I am witty (sometimes sarcastic-it's genetics.)
I am fun to be with, and have a wicked streak
that catches  people unaware. (I get a kick out of watching their faces 
stop in surprise then burst out laughing, because, yes..I did just say that.)
I never stop learning, or reading to learn,
though I do prefer fiction to dry testimonials.
Vivid characters take you on a mind vacation..cheaper than flying.
My true friends love sharing my company.
I don't show my optimistic side to the world,
but it is there, hidden in my dreams.
When I work, I work hard, and enjoy doing it.
( though Lord knows a better paycheck would be Very Good)
I am deserving of respect, because I am 
old fashioned and I have earned it,
by living a life my parents and grandparents would be proud of.
I love watching my gardens grow, and nurturing them to see
the beauty emerge, sharing it with all who would care to see.
I have depth not always shared, especially if I do not believe it appreciated
by those around me.
I may be past the age of first bloom, but I have much still
to offer the world, and someday someone special who will share it with me,
and appreciate Me for who I am.
I have little patience for people who think respect should be

given without earning it.
(I swear at other drivers in the privacy of my car.)
I love music, though frankly it has been missing from my life for
a while now...
I love creating.
I am a woman. I have emotions and feelings, and they show.
I am past the point in my life where constant affirmation
and attention is demanded, proof of love...pay attention to me...not me.
Once..said sincerely..and truthfully..is enough.
I am someone who appreciates their own company.
I have no problem spending time alone, but fear always being alone.
I detest people who manipulate and lie...and have no problem showing it.
I have no patience with falseness of any kind.
I am a beautiful mature woman.
I have my own history, because I have lived.

I have survived the worst of it.
I am here.
You'd better believe it.