Slowly but surely the last pieces that remain are being wiped away. Old emails, mementos, and all. I stopped to read just one old mail, and it clarified how clearly you chose to constantly misunderstand me, and I suspect on purpose. If not your great people skills applied to everyone else but me. So that could not have been the case could it? I became the bad guy 10 times out of 10. I should have gathered my courage and broke free in Fredericksburg, but I wanted us to work out far more than finding a new life.
In the end you got your chance to be as cruel as possible and revel in it. That alone wiped away any hope I had left regarding us. I'm not starting back up here..just shutting the book. I have to wonder if you warn her about you being "a bad guy" and I suspect not. That was just for me..that and whatever excuses you could drum up. I should have been stronger, and you should have been more honest.
In the end you got your chance to be as cruel as possible and revel in it. That alone wiped away any hope I had left regarding us. I'm not starting back up here..just shutting the book. I have to wonder if you warn her about you being "a bad guy" and I suspect not. That was just for me..that and whatever excuses you could drum up. I should have been stronger, and you should have been more honest.
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