I'm Here...and will speak my mind

I really don't care if what I say on my blog disturbs, irritates, makes someone jump for joy, or has no effect at all.  Quite simply I am venting...it's a lot better than walking around talking to yourself, since that will get you a strait jacket.  I hate burdening my friends with constant "boo-hoo's" from me..hence this fountain of feelings posted here..otherwise I would never stop texting, whining or crying in their ears. It's not fair to them, and I do hope that they understand how much I appreciate their support when I do whine/cry/etc.  I doubt seriously if the person I would most like to share this with will even look, he simply does not give a crap.  But I hope that maybe someday, some year, some decade he does open this blog to see what has been said.  I hope that he takes something away from all this, even if it is just anger.  It is my greatest wish at this moment that he would feel anything..anything at all.
 So read on if you'd like. I am obviously not hiding anything, it's all being blurted out in black and white.